My smitticles

Scripture:  
Proverbs 10:8 If you have good sense, you will listen and obey;
if all you do is talk foolishly,
you will destroy yourself.

Other Reference: QUIET: The Power Of Introverts in a World That Can't Stop Talking- Susan Cain

I just really want to talk about my smitticles. Or if you get it, this post is a chronicle of all the things I have fallen in love with. Not really that but how I get to fall in love so much!

Confession: I'm an introvert. I am quiet. I'm socially... awkward you could say

Now back to my smitticles. I love ideas. I am a thinker. When I get smitten by an idea I will be so wrapped up in it that, well that becomes the most interesting thing to me. So when I'm in my obsessive mode everything else pales in comparison. And small talk? Sheeshh!! Kill me now!
All my life I've been told to speak up, to speak more and like Moses when God asked him to lead the people of Egypt, have never felt able to rise to the occasion because well, I've always been convinced that noone would stop to listen to me because let's be honest its hard to ignore the loudest voice.
It wasn't until I heard this talk that I realised that people will count you out because you are not entertaining enough or loud enough that I realised that my lack of delivery of my ideas does not make them any less good. Actually I saw somewhere that social scientists have found that there is actually prejudice to certain personality types but that's shpill for another day.
The point of this post is people looking outside in will never understand but I feel more alive when an idea has totally run me over, wrapped me around and totally immersed me in its truth and its possibilities.

Winifred Gallagher writes: "The glory of the disposition that stops to consider stimuli rather than rushing to engage with them is its long association with intellectual and artistic achievement. Neither E=Mc2 nor Paradise Lost was dashed off by a party animal."

I am what I am and that's ok
...so help me God...

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhe Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be critical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy. © Max Ehrmann 1927

The audacity of Odysseus

Scripture:
Proverbs 21:29  A wicked man puts on a bold face,
but the upright gives thought to his ways.

Proverbs 28:1  The wicked flee when no one pursues,
but the righteous are bold as a lion.

Jeremiah 1:7 "Do not say, 'I am only a youth';
for to all to whom I send you, you shall go,
and whatever I command you, you shall speak.
8  Do not be afraid of them,
for I am with you to deliver you,
declares the Lord."



Odysseus. He was the king of Ithica, supposedly the most adventurous of all Greek mythical characters. So one time he and his men were coming home to Ithica from a battle and a gust of wind changed their course so they had to pass by the sirens. The sirens were supremely beautiful women in mermaid form who sang so beautifully, sailors could not resist but go to them. The thing about it though was the sirens would be sitting on rocks so in attempt to get to the sirens sailors would crash into the rocks and DIE!

But Odysseus, upon finding out that they would be passing by the sirens, even knowing that no man had ever heard the sirens sing and lived to tell about it, decided that he just had to hear them sing for himself. So instead of changing course, he poured wax into his ship mates' ears so that they couldn't hear the sirens sing and therefore avoid being tempted to go to them. He also had himself tied to a mast so that he could hear the sirens but not be able to do anything about it should he be tempted. So because of his audacity to face the sirens, he became the only man to ever hear the sirens and live to tell about it.

BOLDNESS!!!

...so help me God...

Why google must be stopped

I was watching one comedian talking about how google killed wonder. About how in pre-technology days if you wondered about whether or not Pamela Anderson's boobs were real you got this itch in you that you really needed to know. So you went for days just wondering getting more and more eager to know, then you'd ask a chain of people until someone who knew told you. Then you'd feel this wonderful sense of release from that itch. But with google one second you are wondering and the next you've googled Pamela Anderson's boobs and in a split second google tells you that they are in fact, fake. So you literally have no time for what I call itch and release and all the gooey stuff in between(wonder). Google must be stopped for killing one of the only ways the little boys and girls in us still live on.

Nah just kidding! No really.. I love google its a wealth of information. Because of google I know something about everything. But thank God google can't tell the future! One day you are wondering will I ever make it to university. The next you are graduating! Blessed itch and release :) The not knowing is just excitement itself.. When you are not in the know you are in the world of infinite possibility. And look if you really need answers about your future bible it. The answer might be:

Mathew 7:7 if you are gonna wonder what will become of you just know you can also have what you want. Just ask...

Or

Ecclesiastes 3:1if you are getting impatient and wondering how long does it take for my turn to come don't get tired of waiting, everything has its season and your time will come

And wow a million different answers you will get when you bible questions about your future. And the beautiful thing about it is you just know the answer is gonna be good. After all things will always turn out good for all of us who love God.

You have no idea the whoa! i feel when I say 'I wonder what God is doing for me today'. The places I could end up in... The important things I could end up doing... Blows my mind!!

Wonder- the search engine of infinite possibilities... So help me God

Transition

Scripture: Ezekiel 36:
27 And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. 28 Then you will live in the land I gave your ancestors; you will be my people, and I will be your God.

In transition a lot of nothing happens. You run the danger of doing too much or doing too little either way you miss the danger of missing the opportunity God tailor made for you. Motivational speakers always say the first step is knowing what you want. And I don't know... I want a lot of things right now. Things that are so out of reach its stupid, even when I've compromised. But in the end I want to get to the promised land. And while I'm doing what I can to get there what can God do for me? He says it above. In other ways I can run around all I want but all I have to do is yield my spirit to God's spirit and HE will move me to do what's needed to get me to the place He promised me. "Seek yea first the kingdom and the financial prosperity, social stability etc will be added unto you"

...so help me God...

My emotions vs my Promises.

Scripture: 2 Corinthians 1 vs 19
 For the Son of God, Jesus Christ, whom we proclaimed among you, Silvanus and Timothy and I, was not Yes and No, but in him it is always Yes. 20 For all the promises of God find their Yes in him. That is why it is through him that we utter our Amen to God for his glory.

I have noticed how I make emotional decisions. I have come to a place where I'm able to keep calm outside when I'm boiling inside. And I used to think that was enough, never stir unnecessary strife, never elongate painful situations and what not. Self preservation and all that. But not until I started to feel like the children of Egypt going in circles in the wilderness for 40 years when better has been promised to me.

So instead of making decisions off of "I'm never doing that/again because I never want to feel like that\again." I want to decide by yes I have the power to trample over the scorpions and serpents of this earth, yes I am the head and not the tail, yes whatever I ask in His name I will get, yes all things will work out for my good and yes I can, yes I'm enough, yes I'm significant coz why else would I have been fearfully and wonderfully made?

The reason is not only because if I focus on myself more than on Him I will be cheating myself of all that's been promised to me but because I will never have pure motives if I work off of how I feel. Everything I do, however good, will be to make me feel good. It won't edify others or glorify God.

So in pursuing the testimony I will strive for a grip on my emotions. Get it together. So I can walk by faith and not by feeling/sight.

...so help me God...

I'm insured

Scripture: Leviticus 26vs 10 Your harvests will be so plentiful that they will last for a year, and even then you will have to throw away what is left of the old harvest to make room for the new. 11 I will live among you in my sacred Tent, and I will never turn away from you. 12 I will be with you; I will be your God, and you will be my people.

Its a new year. Obviously some things got to go, some got to change and others must stay at all costs. But one thing will remain the same after all the clichés of resolutions and pledges and declarations. Thank God one thing will never change... That He loves me and whatever happens this year, whether I progress, regress or stay stuck that won't and will never change. And so that's how I start my year... gratefully expectant. His promises stay true.. His love stays true And he's still alive in my life. So yay!! Hallelujah!

Further with your purpose, always within your will. Trusting you, loving me.

So help me God...